“When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives meant the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares."
Your sisters constantly amaze and delight me...they are incredible human "beans." You were really lucky to have them - I know they really love and miss you - SO DO I!!
Human "Bean" ... I bought your mom a t-shirt that said that! Our time on earth is short, but sometimes the days seem so LONG! I really didn't get to know you the way I should have! Your presence here on earth was truly valuable ... Now, you're an angel watching over us. Love you PJ!
Hey Mr. Mudd..... thanks for the help these last few weeks. Was going through some of your stuff that I have stored in boxes. You have a jillion CD/DVD cases...... no CD/DVD's in them. Whats up with that....? :)
Just missing you, as always. Would give anything to hear your laugh again...thank goodness for video tape with audio...and your cell phone still says "I'm not here right now..."
Rain, storm clouds, cold weather, snow up north........ sorta how I've been feeling in my heart and soul the last few weeks. It's never going to get better.... I think of you and all you're missing, what we're all missing, what you should be doing at 25 years of age, wife, kids, school, work, and on and on.... next year 26, then 27..... I keep getting older.... I look at your pictures every day..... you stay the same... It's just not right. This is your fault, this is my fault.... and neither one of us can fix it. G D S O B!!!!
Today, December 10, 2009 I am attending the visitation of one of my AA friend's son's death. He, too, is 22 years old. What a blow! I got the same phone call from my friend as I got from your uncle ... I wish there was something I could do! You young people are leaving us too soon! My hope is that you have left this world with a message to those of us who are still living ... we MUST HAVE FAITH AND LIVE ON LIFE'S TERMS. I believe you left me with a message to not only endure life, but to love it and to live it the way God wants me to! I love you PJ, and today I will send my love and yours to my friend's son Jessie, who, like you, died too soon. May God bless the families who must live without their children ... but know we are all blessed to have ever known them!
I guess you might know that I dreampt about G'Pa Munsil driving me in his car and we were seeing out the car window G'ma as a young girl, in her braids and glasses running down a hill. G'pa remarked: "Sure looks like she's having fun!" I think he wants to see you and his wife again ... all the happy, wonderful people he misses in his life! You sure are a bright light to guide him home! Love you, (more than anyone will ever really know!)
I bet you and G'Pa and of course G'ma are having fun right now! You already know, your mom is amazing! She has taken so many burdens off of our family! She always surprises me with her courage and faith and has ALWAYS stepped up, when nobody else will! The blog shows your G'pa and you and shows only a "little" piece of who your mom was (G'pa's genes) and now is (because of you)! Thank you Tami for just being here, when the rest of us (sometimes) aren't! You are truly loved! "T"
Missing you! In the mode of thinking where we were 3 years ago...Sharper Image, so much hope for health and happiness, bringing your truck home, you and Sam singing at the piano...
Hey Mr. Mudd.... hope you enjoyed the trip. I would imagine you're somewhere WAY down the Colorado by now! You were heavy on my mind these last few days.
All those things we never made the time for..... :(
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I will be here I will be strong I'll face my fears When the night is long And still go on I will be brave I will be bold Follow my faith To a higher road And I'm not there yet But I will be
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul; I believe that family is worth more than money or gold; I believe in love surviving death into eternity; I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye...
To my dearest family, some things I’d like to say and especially to let you know that I arrived okay.
I’m writing this from heaven; where I dwell with God above. Here there are no tears of sadness, just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy just because I’m out of sight; I’m really always with you every morning, noon, and night. And when you’ve got me on your mind, remember, I’m walking in your footsteps, only just a step behind.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through, God picked me up and hugged me and He said, “I welcome you.”
When it’s time for you to go from that body to be free, remember, you are not going… You’re coming here to me!
Hey Mr. Mudd...... It's been a while.... since I posted anyway! Hiked on Friday morning. Left a card and a bit of you on top the Peak! I'm still not convinced that it'll be so beautiful, the last day of my life but maybe...... it has to beat trying to gather the energy to get out of bed in the mornings..... Bought a book the other day.... the author lost his son in 2004. It talks about "the other side". Three plus years and one dream about you..... that I remember anyway.... help a guy out here! .... Love You!
I cannot believe that almost 26 years have passed since you joined us...what wonderful years those were...too few too fast...miss you always, love you forever.
I'll lend you for a little time A child of Mine," He said, "For you to love the while he lives, And mourn for when he's dead. It may be six or seven years Or twenty-two or three, But will you, till I call him back, Take care of him for Me? He'll bring his charms to gladden you, And should his stay be brief, You'll have his lovely memories As solace for your grief.
I cannot promise he will stay, Since all from earth return, But there are lessons taught down there I want this child to learn. I've looked this wide world over In My search for teachers true, And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes, I have selected you; Now will you give him all your love, Not think the labor vain, Nor hate Me when I come to call And take him back again?"
I fancied that I heard them say, "Dear Lord, Thy will be done, For all the joy Thy child shall bring, The risk of grief we'll run. We'll shelter him with tenderness, We'll love him while we may, And for the happiness we've known, Forever grateful stay. But should the angels call for him Much sooner than we planned, We'll brave the bitter grief that comes And try to understand.
Your sister asked me if she thought people had forgotten about you - can't imagine that someone as fun and interesting and crazy as you could be forgotten, ONLY MISSED! Love you.
Watched Lovley Bones just a moment ago. I missed you so very much as I watched! I still don't think I can stand watching James Bond without you laughing at the actors! Ill always miss you, no matter where I am. Love you so very much!
just posted a moment ago, but I forgot to ask something. You hear about a new show "Outsourced"? Im in love with it now. I bet your always laughing right along side me when it gets weird! Hey, one more thing, make sure those stupid baseball games or whatever don't get in the way of my watching "Hell's Kitchen" O.K?! Love you!
I don't understand why ... I can just start crying at the drop of a hat when I think of you! We didn't have a chance to truly know each other, accept we always had a very real disease ... drugs, alcohol ... I WISH, SO BAD, SO MUCH IT WOULD HAVE BEEN ME INSTEAD!!! I miss your smile, your dimeanor and YOU! I guess the saying is right "only the good die youn!!!" I love you PJ ... thanks for being aa part of my day!
PJ...the dream that I had where you hugged me left me calm and at peace...thanks so much for that I really needed it...I just wish it could have lasted longer! But I'll take whatever I can get!
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Another blog...but you're not here...blog, blog, blog
Are you out there somewhere?
I know your out there somewhere PJ!
I know your out there somewhere PJ!
Love you so much!!!
“When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives meant the
most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares."
~ Henri Nouwen
Miss you ALL the time.
:(
Feels like you've been around alot this weekend. Love you.
Come play with the turtle...boy, would you have laughed...finding him in the pool!
Love you...miss you...
Hey Mr. Mudd.......
Hearing "your" songs lots these days...puts a whole new spin on them...do cds spin...I guess so...love you
JUST MISSING YOU
A year ago I was missing you at our wedding. Surprise, surprise...still missing you a year later.
So very, very tired
I'm 53, you're still 22...... that sucks!
Whooo Knewwww
Some days I think of the good times, some times the very bad times, but I always am thinking of you!
Your sisters constantly amaze and delight me...they are incredible human "beans." You were really lucky to have them - I know they really love and miss you - SO DO I!!
Beautiful day here on Earth, how is it where you are...
Human "Bean" ... I bought your mom a t-shirt that said that! Our time on earth is short, but sometimes the days seem so LONG! I really didn't get to know you the way I should have! Your presence here on earth was truly valuable ... Now, you're an angel watching over us. Love you PJ!
Hey Mr. Mudd..... thanks for the help these last few weeks. Was going through some of your stuff that I have stored in boxes. You have a jillion CD/DVD cases...... no CD/DVD's in them. Whats up with that....? :)
Your brother is just like you!!!
Just missing you, as always. Would give anything to hear your laugh again...thank goodness for video tape with audio...and your cell phone still says "I'm not here right now..."
It's lonely without you
Just checking in. Love you.
...the holidays...never been so hot on the holidays...guess we just keep on keepin' on...
Miss Ya.... still can't figure all this out, probably won't....
: )
this week has been awfully lonely without you
I'll be saving the wishbone for you.
In my thoughts and prayers this week, every week actually..... this one more than others. This is gonna be a hard Christmas.......
your truck is parked out front, just like when you were here
....was thinking about our last Christmas with you. :(
....was thinking about our last Christmas with you. :(
....was thinking about our last Christmas with you. :(
Rain, storm clouds, cold weather, snow up north........ sorta how I've been feeling in my heart and soul the last few weeks. It's never going to get better.... I think of you and all you're missing, what we're all missing, what you should be doing at 25 years of age, wife, kids, school, work, and on and on.... next year 26, then 27..... I keep getting older.... I look at your pictures every day..... you stay the same... It's just not right. This is your fault, this is my fault.... and neither one of us can fix it. G D S O B!!!!
No it's G D M F S O B !!!!!
Hi PJ!
Today, December 10, 2009 I am attending the visitation of one of my AA friend's son's death. He, too, is 22 years old. What a blow! I got the same phone call from my friend as I got from your uncle ... I wish there was something I could do! You young people are leaving us too soon! My hope is that you have left this world with a message to those of us who are still living ... we MUST HAVE FAITH AND LIVE ON LIFE'S TERMS. I believe you left me with a message to not only endure life, but to love it and to live it the way God wants me to! I love you PJ, and today I will send my love and yours to my friend's son Jessie, who, like you, died too soon. May God bless the families who must live without their children ... but know we are all blessed to have ever known them!
Give your grandpa a hug for me...43years is a long time to miss someone!
I MISS HIM TOO!
"Fall, fall, fall," shouts PJ, KT and Dad to Cyndie.
Merry Christmas, sweet boy!
Still talking about you...as if you never left! Love you. You're missing your big sis' birthday...ah, well...she's getting older. Are you?
just continuing to miss you and wonder "what if?"
sometimes it's hard to forget the pain you went through, that we all went through...
Hey Mr Mudd.......... tick tock...... that damn clock...... who knew at 22....... you...... would be gone from us...... tick tock......
Feels like you're hanging around helping...love you...
Just thinking about you.
Getting worn out!
okay, so now it's hearing aids...who's playing games???? Thanks...saved big bucks.
i just really miss you
so you've been visiting again
Sometimes I feel like someone is watching me...
seems you're visiting quite often without saying hello...
hey, pj, come bring your great grandma, it's getting to be that time...love you!
Dreamt about you again last night. We hugged so tight. Thanks for comin' to see me.
Hi PJ!
I guess you might know that I dreampt about G'Pa Munsil driving me in his car and we were seeing out the car window G'ma as a young girl, in her braids and glasses running down a hill. G'pa remarked: "Sure looks like she's having fun!" I think he wants to see you and his wife again ... all the happy, wonderful people he misses in his life! You sure are a bright light to guide him home! Love you, (more than anyone will ever really know!)
Must have just missed you the other morning....love you.
I'm really missing you right now! I feel like i'm losing you and I can't remember!
Hi PJ!
I bet you and G'Pa and of course G'ma are having fun right now! You already know, your mom is amazing! She has taken so many burdens off of our family! She always surprises me with her courage and faith and has ALWAYS stepped up, when nobody else will! The blog shows your G'pa and you and shows only a "little" piece of who your mom was (G'pa's genes) and now is (because of you)! Thank you Tami for just being here, when the rest of us (sometimes) aren't! You are truly loved! "T"
Missing you! In the mode of thinking where we were 3 years ago...Sharper Image, so much hope for health and happiness, bringing your truck home, you and Sam singing at the piano...
OMG...... another year. Who would have imagined!
Hey Mr. Mudd.... hope you enjoyed the trip. I would imagine you're somewhere WAY down the Colorado by now! You were heavy on my mind these last few days.
All those things we never made the time for..... :(
closer...cLoSeR....CLOSER.....
tryng not to think
test
test2
missing you
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). Doesn't make sense.
And all of this on the 3rd Anniversary of PJ's passing -- when we all want to post some comments.
PJ -- if you can pull some strings up there and fix this, we'd appreciate it. :)
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Looks like issue was related to some new security settings on Internet Explorer. You could fix this by changing your security settings to LOW ... but that's not a good solution.
A better solution was to change a setting on the blog that moves the comment block to the bottom of the page (rather than taking you to a Blogger.com page).
So ... now you can add your comment directly at the bottom of the page which is much better anyways.
Sorry for the Blog not being accessible this past week. But it should be working now.
finally...rocking and rolling again = literally
wish you were going to Disney with us!!
Going to the plaque dedication tomorrow. Hard to believe it's been 3 years already. I'm always missing you.
wish you were here to celebrate cyndie's big 21st
missing you and your big smile
I really missed you these past few days!! I wish you could have spent them with us.
everybody missed you...love you.
come to San Diego...one of your favorite spots
Sometimes I still feel like I didn't do enough. But I also think about the fact that I didn't know how else to help you. Life without you sucks.
love you
miss you
- VALLEY HO -
I will be here
I will be strong
I'll face my fears
When the night is long
And still go on
I will be brave
I will be bold
Follow my faith
To a higher road
And I'm not there yet
But I will be
life has killed the dream in me
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul;
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold;
I believe in love surviving death into eternity;
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye...
fonduing with sami for her graduation was NOT the same without you...we all miss you SO much!!
wish you were here
To my dearest family, some things I’d like to say and especially to let you know that I arrived okay.
I’m writing this from heaven; where I dwell with God above. Here there are no tears of sadness, just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy just because I’m out of sight; I’m really always with you every morning, noon, and night. And when you’ve got me on your mind, remember, I’m walking in your footsteps, only just a step behind.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through, God picked me up and hugged me and He said, “I welcome you.”
When it’s time for you to go from that body
to be free, remember, you are not going…
You’re coming here to me!
Hey Mr. Mudd...... It's been a while.... since I posted anyway! Hiked on Friday morning. Left a card and a bit of you on top the Peak! I'm still not convinced that it'll be so beautiful, the last day of my life but maybe...... it has to beat trying to gather the energy to get out of bed in the mornings..... Bought a book the other day.... the author lost his son in 2004. It talks about "the other side". Three plus years and one dream about you..... that I remember anyway.... help a guy out here! .... Love You!
don't know how much more strength i have
Miss you.
guess you've got a front row seat for all the fire works...love you.
What kind of cake you want for your party next month? Let me know!
we'll be saving a place for you at The Keg...we're all here...come on over!!! love you.
why does this blog not work most of the time...
When you are posting, be sure to hit "preview" first and then post...some glitch in the blog server....
I cannot believe that almost 26 years have passed since you joined us...what wonderful years those were...too few too fast...miss you always, love you forever.
walked past a house with the door open. someone was laughing out loud and for half a second i thought it was you.
A CHILD LOANED
I'll lend you for a little time
A child of Mine," He said,
"For you to love the while he lives,
And mourn for when he's dead.
It may be six or seven years
Or twenty-two or three,
But will you, till I call him back,
Take care of him for Me?
He'll bring his charms to gladden you,
And should his stay be brief,
You'll have his lovely memories
As solace for your grief.
I cannot promise he will stay,
Since all from earth return,
But there are lessons taught down there
I want this child to learn.
I've looked this wide world over
In My search for teachers true,
And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes,
I have selected you;
Now will you give him all your love,
Not think the labor vain,
Nor hate Me when I come to call
And take him back again?"
I fancied that I heard them say,
"Dear Lord, Thy will be done,
For all the joy Thy child shall bring,
The risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter him with tenderness,
We'll love him while we may,
And for the happiness we've known,
Forever grateful stay.
But should the angels call for him
Much sooner than we planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes
And try to understand.
-by Edgar A. Guest
Happy Birthday PJ! We're all thinking about you today ... even more than usual.
Happy Birthday PJ...
They say it's your birthday.....
Happy, happy birthday Paul Francis Mudd, Junior
45 minutes of labor, 22 years of life, 1 year of hell, a lifetime of memories...love you, my boy
headaches
love you!!
How much more???
I can't smile without you, I can't smile without you...I can't laugh and I can't sing I'm finding it hard to do anything...
I just can't smile without you!!
HEART, WE WILL FORGET HIM!
by your cuz: Emily Dickinson (1830-1886)
HEART, we will forget him!
You and I, to-night!
You may forget the warmth he gave,
I will forget the light.
When you have done, pray tell me,
That I my thoughts may dim;
Haste! lest while you're lagging,
I may remember him!
Miss you!
Your sister asked me if she thought people had forgotten about you - can't imagine that someone as fun and interesting and crazy as you could be forgotten, ONLY MISSED! Love you.
Those who are truely loved are NEVER really forgotten...
I still cry...
I still cry too for ALL of you...
Watched Lovley Bones just a moment ago. I missed you so very much as I watched! I still don't think I can stand watching James Bond without you laughing at the actors! Ill always miss you, no matter where I am. Love you so very much!
just posted a moment ago, but I forgot to ask something. You hear about a new show "Outsourced"? Im in love with it now. I bet your always laughing right along side me when it gets weird! Hey, one more thing, make sure those stupid baseball games or whatever don't get in the way of my watching "Hell's Kitchen" O.K?! Love you!
P.S. I can see you when I'm bored in science!
Thank you, Master Peed-man....
I don't understand why ... I can just start crying at the drop of a hat when I think of you! We didn't have a chance to truly know each other, accept we always had a very real disease ... drugs, alcohol ... I WISH, SO BAD, SO MUCH IT WOULD HAVE BEEN ME INSTEAD!!! I miss your smile, your dimeanor and YOU! I guess the saying is right "only the good die youn!!!" I love you PJ ... thanks for being aa part of my day!
Just read your CAD report...it just popped up on the screen...makes me sad and angry! I love you.
Don Jose's is coming back - YEAH!! I think I will order a cheeseburger in your honor.
Saved the wishbone for you - AGAIN....
It's snowing...
Love you
Tears seem to be flowing more and more...getting harder to hide the sadness...
this is rough business
PJ...the dream that I had where you hugged me left me calm and at peace...thanks so much for that I really needed it...I just wish it could have lasted longer! But I'll take whatever I can get!
Peace on Earth...Good Will to All
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6h-zGubtCF8
Love you...wish you were here!
2,400 year old soup found...who knew...wonder what you would say about that!
Lots of "remember whens" going on....alot of them, most of them, have you in them...love you SO much.
:).... can't dance!
Have a Heavenly Christmas PJ...WE LOVE YOU!
Remembering the beautiful luminaries surrounding the Church...MERRY CHRISTMAS to you all!
Putting your special ornaments on the tree is sweet but sad...I miss you so much!
Merry Christmas!
Snow is forming a wonderful blanket over your truck...wish you were here!
Happy New Year...another one without YOU
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